We were discussing this in English class today and I started to wonder what it would be. The first thing that came to mind was The day that I mentionned in my previous blog, the day I failed my ''Police Technology'' test in January 2011. It was a day that, if I had passed the test, I woud have gone down a completely different path in life and I now know how unhappy I would have been so I guess that's my biggest turning point so far.
On that day, as I was leaving the college in my dads car, I felt like an asshole. I felt like such a fucking failure and I had no idea what I was going to do from now on. But then I realized what I had seen in a movie once, a movie called With Honors. In that movie, Joe Pesci plays a hobo who lives in the basement of Harvard University and Brendan Frasier plays a semi-stuck-up student who ends up becomming very good friends with Joe Pesci. But the point of me mentionning this movie is because at one point, Joe Pesci reveals a small bag of stones that he keeps with him at all times and those stones represent his memories. For each important memory of his life, he picked up a stone and kept it. So as I was Driving off the campus I told my dad to stop the car. I then got out and I picked up the first stone I saw amongst the falling snow and I still have it to this day. I don't know what else I will want to remember for the rest of my life but when that moment comes along, I'm sure I won't forget to pick up a stone.
I suggest the same to all those who read this, it's honestly a great feeling. Whenever I hold that rock I picked up that day, Its like being there again, I feel cold and a certain smell comes to me and it's practically a time machine, it's pretty fuckin cool!
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Thursday, February 16, 2012
I just saw an ad that said ''You will spend 1/3 of your life on a mattress'' and now I'm freaked out
ONE THIRD? IM GOING TO SPEND ONE THIRD OF MY ENTIRE LIFETIME IN A DREAM STATE THAT I'LL NEVER REMEMBER????
Life is long, it's the longest thing anyone will ever go through (unless there's an afterlife) so how is it possible that we spend roughly 30 years SLEEPING???? that means that those of us who live to be 90 will only have really lived 60 years! That sucks!
Ok, death is a pretty big topic that everyone thinks about.
I envy the people who never really think about it, because I am clearly not one of them. I'm not saying I'm scared of dying, but I'm sure if I really think about it I am. I guess I just don't wanna die. I love who I am and where I am in life, I've been born in such a great time with such great parents and amazing opportunities, I just don't wanna give it up. I'm Jewish, but I always leave room for the unknown. In other words, I'd LOVE if there were a god and I'd LOVE to go to heaven for eternity and just be happy with all my relatives and just to see what it's like. That sounds fucking fantastic, but I don't know if it WILL happen, so I guess most would say I lack faith, and I guess that's true. But when I think about death, the religion aspect (heaven, hell, afterlife) rarely occurs to me.
Have you ever tried to picture death without an afterlife? It is physically impossible because you would have to picture NOTHING. and you may be thinking ''Oh, picturing 'nothing', that's easy'' but you're WRONG when YOU picture nothing, what do you see? black, right? WRONG when you died, you don't see black, you don't SEE you don't THINK you have no distinction between nothing and something, you don't know what's black, what's white. you don't KNOW anything! and that's fucked up! you don't exsits, nothing exsists. you don't even know what you've ever exsisted because you don't anymore!
I sometimes think Of my grave, how long will it take until people forget about it? basically everyone knows where their parents graves are when they die and they might know where their grandparents' graves are and SOME people may ever know where their great-grandparents are buried. But most people only know their parents. That freaks me out, I'm gonna live and die. I'll be remembered for a little while but a lifetime later I will be completely forgotten because the only people who relly remembered me the longest--my family--have forgotten me so I'll just be gone, a pebble amongst rocks (great metaphor that I just made up, not bad eh? haha) I'll be just another stone in a jewish cemetery with ''SCHWARTZ'' written on it and maybe some nice words.
Fuck.
I wish reincarnation is real. That, to me, would be the greatest afterlife. to live again. Well, actually it would bethe second greatest.
THE greatest afterlife for me would be a mix. A mix of heaven and reincarnation. Allow me to explain. In my perfect scenario, I would die and go to ''Heaven'' where I would be given a little taste of what it's like lalalaa, BUT I would be given a choice to stay there for eternity OR be reincarnated. But the best part would be, I wouldn't have a dealine! there wouldn't be a reincarnation waiting list, if I wanted to reincarnate at ANY time, I could just walk up to the gatekeeper or whatever and say, I'm ready bud, send me back down! That would be amazing... But then again there are the sickos and the 'bad people' and we'd have to find a place for them, but I have a solution for them too. If you've been 'bad' during your lifetime (only serious shit, murder, rape blablabla) you get reset. you are automatically reincarnated with, no descision because 'bad' people shouldn't have a choice to spend eternity in a wonderful place, they should be given a second chance at life. and If they fuck up again, they go through the same process.
I just realized I'm roughly describing Hinduism... shit... I guess someone's already thought of this, I just put some twists on it... Whatever, maybe I'll become a Hindu, meditation can't hurt right?
Well, it's 12:17and I have to wake up at 6 for an 8:30 class.
G'night gang and remember, don't die yet because I need people to keep reading my posts!
Life is long, it's the longest thing anyone will ever go through (unless there's an afterlife) so how is it possible that we spend roughly 30 years SLEEPING???? that means that those of us who live to be 90 will only have really lived 60 years! That sucks!
Ok, death is a pretty big topic that everyone thinks about.
I envy the people who never really think about it, because I am clearly not one of them. I'm not saying I'm scared of dying, but I'm sure if I really think about it I am. I guess I just don't wanna die. I love who I am and where I am in life, I've been born in such a great time with such great parents and amazing opportunities, I just don't wanna give it up. I'm Jewish, but I always leave room for the unknown. In other words, I'd LOVE if there were a god and I'd LOVE to go to heaven for eternity and just be happy with all my relatives and just to see what it's like. That sounds fucking fantastic, but I don't know if it WILL happen, so I guess most would say I lack faith, and I guess that's true. But when I think about death, the religion aspect (heaven, hell, afterlife) rarely occurs to me.
Have you ever tried to picture death without an afterlife? It is physically impossible because you would have to picture NOTHING. and you may be thinking ''Oh, picturing 'nothing', that's easy'' but you're WRONG when YOU picture nothing, what do you see? black, right? WRONG when you died, you don't see black, you don't SEE you don't THINK you have no distinction between nothing and something, you don't know what's black, what's white. you don't KNOW anything! and that's fucked up! you don't exsits, nothing exsists. you don't even know what you've ever exsisted because you don't anymore!
I sometimes think Of my grave, how long will it take until people forget about it? basically everyone knows where their parents graves are when they die and they might know where their grandparents' graves are and SOME people may ever know where their great-grandparents are buried. But most people only know their parents. That freaks me out, I'm gonna live and die. I'll be remembered for a little while but a lifetime later I will be completely forgotten because the only people who relly remembered me the longest--my family--have forgotten me so I'll just be gone, a pebble amongst rocks (great metaphor that I just made up, not bad eh? haha) I'll be just another stone in a jewish cemetery with ''SCHWARTZ'' written on it and maybe some nice words.
Fuck.
I wish reincarnation is real. That, to me, would be the greatest afterlife. to live again. Well, actually it would bethe second greatest.
THE greatest afterlife for me would be a mix. A mix of heaven and reincarnation. Allow me to explain. In my perfect scenario, I would die and go to ''Heaven'' where I would be given a little taste of what it's like lalalaa, BUT I would be given a choice to stay there for eternity OR be reincarnated. But the best part would be, I wouldn't have a dealine! there wouldn't be a reincarnation waiting list, if I wanted to reincarnate at ANY time, I could just walk up to the gatekeeper or whatever and say, I'm ready bud, send me back down! That would be amazing... But then again there are the sickos and the 'bad people' and we'd have to find a place for them, but I have a solution for them too. If you've been 'bad' during your lifetime (only serious shit, murder, rape blablabla) you get reset. you are automatically reincarnated with, no descision because 'bad' people shouldn't have a choice to spend eternity in a wonderful place, they should be given a second chance at life. and If they fuck up again, they go through the same process.
I just realized I'm roughly describing Hinduism... shit... I guess someone's already thought of this, I just put some twists on it... Whatever, maybe I'll become a Hindu, meditation can't hurt right?
Well, it's 12:17and I have to wake up at 6 for an 8:30 class.
G'night gang and remember, don't die yet because I need people to keep reading my posts!
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Netflix.
As I mentionned in my last post that I posted a few minutes ago, I was watching The Great Escape. I fucking love movies, so much so that I'm very intertested in persuing a career in them. Now I'm not too sure exactly what I want to do when I'm 'older', all I know is that I need to be around movies.
Like in Rocky when Rocky asks Mick for a job at the Gym and Mickey tells him that he'd lose his dignity letting rookie fighters watch someone Who almost beat the champion of the world carrying spit and Rock says ''I gotta be around it.''
See? I love movies...
So, it must be clear to you all that a movie-buff like myself MUST have a Netflix account, and you're right. I do. and I love it. Honestly I think Netflix is a fucking incredible service and anyone who complains about them not having a wide enough selection are full of shit! Just because Netflix doesn't have the movies YOUUUUU like, doesn't mean they don't have movies!! You should all broaden your horizons and watch the movies they DO have (which is a lot!).
I just realized that approximately 3 hours ago a put a TV dinner in the microwave for 4 minutes and completely forgot about it... fuck...
Back to the topic of films, I'm in college (or cegep for us canucks) and I'm in my second semester. My first semester was WASTED on a little program called ''pathways to business'' the fact that I wanted to be in that program in the first place makes me slightly nausious (?). I wanted to go into that program because I thought I'd be a good lawyer (which to be honest I probably would) but I don't think it would make me happy. Before that I tried to enter John Abbott College's ''Police Technology'' program but I failed that exam and I'm god damned glad I did! (I failed the physical testing, but not because I'm a fatty, I'm actually in rather good shape, I just didn't put in a single training session and I got massive cramps in the middle of the 400m swim) I guess it's because I just wasn't passionate about it. I knwo what you may be thinking and you're wrong, I didn't want to be a 'cop'. I wanted to be a forensic investigator.
Like Dexter Morgan in Showtime's hit show Dexter of which I am an avid watcher.
But it turns out that going through ''Police Tech'' was not the way to get that Job, I had tyo go through Sciences and there was no way I'd do that because I didn't have the best grades in High School Science. So I ended up turning to the one thing that has always been there for me, film (and television I guess).
I have to thank my dad (you'll probably hear a lot about him in this blog because he's probably my biggest inspiration for anything) for giving me my interest in film. When I was a kid (I'm 17 now so I guess I'm still sort of a kid) we would go to the movies pretty much every week and we'd usually see movies that he wanted to see which gave me a particular taste in classic movies and GOOD movies. I remember seeing Gladiator in theaters with him in 2000 (I was 6, almost 7 because it came out twelve days before my bithday) and being amazing at the scene where the Romans fight the Germanians. I remeber vividly the scene where the Romans shoot their flame-tipped arrows. I can still picture sitting in the seat and watching them fly through the air in incredible clarity as if it were yesterday and every time I watch that movie since then (Which is a lot because it's one of my all-time favorite films) I still see that scene through the eyes of a 6-year-old. When I was 9 he snuck me into 2004's The Punisher. We tried buying tickets to it but I was clearly too young so we ended up buying tickets to The Alamo and sneaking our way into the movie and since that night The Punisher has always been one of my favorite movies. Not only because I fucking LOVE that movie! But because I can still remember getting up from my seat in The Alamo, walking out the big theater doors and checking to see when the doorman would stop watching the doors to the theater that The Punisher was playing.
But now, after that one semester of Business, I'm in a program where I'm taking classes like ''Filmmaking'' and ''Video production'', I was hoping to also take ''Film Studies'' and ''Script Writing'' but they were already full...
I guess I don't have too much more to write, you already got a little taste of who I am so I guess I'll write in this again too, until then I'm going to rescue that TV dinner and watch some more movies
Ciao.
Like in Rocky when Rocky asks Mick for a job at the Gym and Mickey tells him that he'd lose his dignity letting rookie fighters watch someone Who almost beat the champion of the world carrying spit and Rock says ''I gotta be around it.''
See? I love movies...
So, it must be clear to you all that a movie-buff like myself MUST have a Netflix account, and you're right. I do. and I love it. Honestly I think Netflix is a fucking incredible service and anyone who complains about them not having a wide enough selection are full of shit! Just because Netflix doesn't have the movies YOUUUUU like, doesn't mean they don't have movies!! You should all broaden your horizons and watch the movies they DO have (which is a lot!).
I just realized that approximately 3 hours ago a put a TV dinner in the microwave for 4 minutes and completely forgot about it... fuck...
Back to the topic of films, I'm in college (or cegep for us canucks) and I'm in my second semester. My first semester was WASTED on a little program called ''pathways to business'' the fact that I wanted to be in that program in the first place makes me slightly nausious (?). I wanted to go into that program because I thought I'd be a good lawyer (which to be honest I probably would) but I don't think it would make me happy. Before that I tried to enter John Abbott College's ''Police Technology'' program but I failed that exam and I'm god damned glad I did! (I failed the physical testing, but not because I'm a fatty, I'm actually in rather good shape, I just didn't put in a single training session and I got massive cramps in the middle of the 400m swim) I guess it's because I just wasn't passionate about it. I knwo what you may be thinking and you're wrong, I didn't want to be a 'cop'. I wanted to be a forensic investigator.
Like Dexter Morgan in Showtime's hit show Dexter of which I am an avid watcher.
But it turns out that going through ''Police Tech'' was not the way to get that Job, I had tyo go through Sciences and there was no way I'd do that because I didn't have the best grades in High School Science. So I ended up turning to the one thing that has always been there for me, film (and television I guess).
I have to thank my dad (you'll probably hear a lot about him in this blog because he's probably my biggest inspiration for anything) for giving me my interest in film. When I was a kid (I'm 17 now so I guess I'm still sort of a kid) we would go to the movies pretty much every week and we'd usually see movies that he wanted to see which gave me a particular taste in classic movies and GOOD movies. I remember seeing Gladiator in theaters with him in 2000 (I was 6, almost 7 because it came out twelve days before my bithday) and being amazing at the scene where the Romans fight the Germanians. I remeber vividly the scene where the Romans shoot their flame-tipped arrows. I can still picture sitting in the seat and watching them fly through the air in incredible clarity as if it were yesterday and every time I watch that movie since then (Which is a lot because it's one of my all-time favorite films) I still see that scene through the eyes of a 6-year-old. When I was 9 he snuck me into 2004's The Punisher. We tried buying tickets to it but I was clearly too young so we ended up buying tickets to The Alamo and sneaking our way into the movie and since that night The Punisher has always been one of my favorite movies. Not only because I fucking LOVE that movie! But because I can still remember getting up from my seat in The Alamo, walking out the big theater doors and checking to see when the doorman would stop watching the doors to the theater that The Punisher was playing.
But now, after that one semester of Business, I'm in a program where I'm taking classes like ''Filmmaking'' and ''Video production'', I was hoping to also take ''Film Studies'' and ''Script Writing'' but they were already full...
I guess I don't have too much more to write, you already got a little taste of who I am so I guess I'll write in this again too, until then I'm going to rescue that TV dinner and watch some more movies
Ciao.
First post!
This is the post that begins them all. The post that will the be first in all the future history book to come. You may not yet realize how important this is but you soon will as you keep reading. The more blogs I will post the less hungry the children in Africa will be, the less people will want to wage wars and kill one another. After reading my blog people will be generally kinda and gentler and will love one another forever and ever and ever and ever and ever.
Now enough of that bullshit, I started this because I was really bored and my shot-ish attention span lost interest in the great excape (Even though it has always been one of my favorite movies but It's almost 3 hours long, can you blame me for losing a bit of interest?)
Aww fuck! Steve McQueen just got caugh in the barbed wire... Not fair...
Ok so I' starting this blog with entusiasm, hoping that I can keep up regularity and not only post once a month or less. I rarely commit to things like this so I think I'd like to for ONCE. I don't really have much to say today even though I have a feeling in my chest like I do. I guess I'll end this post with a ''Welcome to my blog!'' and start a new post in a few seconds about whatever the fuck I want :)
Thanks for reading,
Max.
Now enough of that bullshit, I started this because I was really bored and my shot-ish attention span lost interest in the great excape (Even though it has always been one of my favorite movies but It's almost 3 hours long, can you blame me for losing a bit of interest?)
Aww fuck! Steve McQueen just got caugh in the barbed wire... Not fair...
Ok so I' starting this blog with entusiasm, hoping that I can keep up regularity and not only post once a month or less. I rarely commit to things like this so I think I'd like to for ONCE. I don't really have much to say today even though I have a feeling in my chest like I do. I guess I'll end this post with a ''Welcome to my blog!'' and start a new post in a few seconds about whatever the fuck I want :)
Thanks for reading,
Max.
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